Body Rant

This has not been my week. A large part of that goes to my lack of self confidence. If that sounds silly to you, click away from this page now. Because here comes a body rant.

Most days I don't worry too much about my appearance. My job requires me to wear scrubs every day, and who can feel good about themselves while wearing them? No one. When I do get to wear normal clothes I feel great until I look into the mirror.

It is too easy to point out all the parts of me that I don't like. My double chin, fat thighs, broad shoulders...the list goes on and on. I promise that I try to feel confident about myself. It just doesn't always work....

Today I saw myself on a big screen. You best believe that I almost cried in front of a lot of people. I just couldn't take it. There were so many gorgeous girls walking around, and I felt TOTALLY out of place. There were other girls my size walking around, but I still felt like poo. It's just so frustrating. I'm sure plenty of you can relate. Why do we always compare ourselves to others? It just causes heartbreak. The standard for beauty is too overwhelming. 

So this year will be dedicated to change. NO, this is not a New Year's resolution. This is just a better me revolution. Better mind set and better body. I have been doing a whole lot better with drinking more water and cutting back on sweets and portion sizes.

ENCOURAGEMENT TIME. 

I know that it is hard to believe people when they tell you that you look beautiful or handsome. If you are going through something similar, I am sorry. Really I am. Reach out to the people who can relate and help encourage you. 

It's okay to not be happy with your body. But there is a fine line between hating yourself and wanting to change. So here's to being happier and healthier.

P.S. If you need tiny booster in your mood, grab a tube of lipstick. Rock the hell out of it.