Guard My Heart

Relationships are important, that goes without saying. What I think some people fail to realize is that it can take a toll on your heart. My Father passed away in 2007. We were never that close, or if we were I don't remember it. We had our moments. I would go with him on his garbage route every now and then. There was this one time when he paid me to ride a horse for 2 minutes, that was the easiest $10 I have ever made. But all I have are little memories. Nothing huge, nothing profound. Sometimes it hurts to think about. I want to know what he would think about who I am now, what I look like, or even if he would be proud. But then I realize that it doesn't matter. He was never there when I needed him. He didn't love me like a real parent should. 

I say ALL of that to insert a letter from God to his daughter. (It applies to you guys as well.) I had to stop several times because of the tears. 

"Dear Daughter, 

      I remember well the day you left my side, wandered through the veil and ventured forth to fulfill your earthly mission. I had a tear in my eye as I clothed your spirit in a clock of love and sent you off to school. Be assured that my thoughts are with you now, as always.

     I love you with all my heart. I know your life, the good, the bad, your grief, your disappointments, your unrewarded efforts, your frustrations. But always remember all that I have is yours if you will only come home again.

     Daughter, realize that in you I have placed a bit of Heaven, no one was exempt. I love all of my children. You have some blessed gifts, some talents, some little part of me in you. Search for it, develop it, use it and most importantly, share it with others. If you really love me, then help other find themselves and lead them to me. Show your love by serving others. 

     Repent of your failings and humble yourself. Make yourself teachable and continually strive to improve. I gave you weaknesses to help you be humble. Don't condemn me for that. I did it because I love you. Be full of hope. Don't let discouragement engulf you. I'll come if you need me. 

     Daughter, cease your idle contentions. Be a peacemaker, for it breaks my heart to see so many of my children fighting. If they could only see what I have hoped, planned, and desired for them. My heart breaks as I watch them. But you, faithful daughter, are my hope. It is through you that my work must proceed. You haven't much time and there is so much work to be done. I beg you to get started. Accomplish the mission I have for you. I'll help you. I'll never be too busy or too far to come to you. I'm nearer to you always than you might suspect.  

     Come to me often in prayer, I love to talk to you, my beloved daughter. Be diligent in my work and my kingdom shall be yours. I'd love to take you in my arms, but I too, must wait patiently. That time will come. Til then I leave you with my peace, my blessing, my love, and never forget I am nearby whenever you need me. 

     I love you and miss you so very much, and, of, how I am looking forward to your return to me.

                                                                                              All my love,

                                                                                                Your Heavenly Father"

Isn't that touching? My Earthly Father wasn't the best, but my Heavenly Father is. He loves me so much. Even after all the times I have messed up and cursed his name. He is still right there just waiting for me to come home. He knows all of my heartaches. He knows every thing and every one that will hurt it. 

My heart has been hurting lately. I don't know what to do. I have thought about tossing it out several times, but what good would that do me? Instead, I've decided to let God guard my heart. When it's time for me to love another God will let me know. 

I found another quote that I am going to hang on my wall later.....

"My dear one, 

     No man can ever claim you unless he claims you from Me. I reserved a man for you who has My heart and loves Me more than he will love you. Soon you will know him. I have the perfect time. You are my Princess, my Daughter. Let no Prince claim you unless he asks you from My hand. For I am your Father, The King of Kings. You, my Princess, are worth loving and deserve a Prince. 

                                                                                                                    Love, 

                                                                                                                      God"

I don't know if this will all make sense to anyone else. Just know that God can guard your heart until it's your time for love or anything else in life.

You are special, so don't settle for anything but the best. When it doubt, pray. It helps.